It's been a real struggle lately. So many things 'pending'. I'm venting my frustration here via this artwork and a general whinge, so if you aren't in the mood you'd better stop reading now.
I'm desperate to get off the damn hill where I live but the block we had lined up has fallen through. We didn't sell our house in time - real estate is very sluggish at the moment and it's a buyer's market.
I keep submitting illustration work to various businesses/agents but so far no joy. Some don't even reply to my e-mails. To be fair it's probably a bit premature for me to be doing this but I'm keen to get going.
My job is exhausting and stressful but I can't afford to chuck it in - I don't have many options. I feel as though I am providing something worthwhile to my students but working for the government really is pushing a huge pile of poo up a very steep hill. Bureacracy is anathema to creatives - raging against the machine is absolutely pointless but you can only work so long in a vice before you lose the will to live.
On a positive note: I am making headway honing my illustration style, however I'm feeling so deflated that even drawing is a chore at the moment - so I keep stalling there too. I am creating a new website but need to get some more illustrations finished before I launch it. It's a vicious circle.
Life is a relentless routine at the moment. This old hampster is very tired and needs to step off the wheel. SOMETHING'S GOTTA GIVE!!! And soon - or I'm simply going to fall off.